sembreak
it's been a while since i last blogged. last week was a really really toxic week :p i don't want to ever go through that again. one of my worse weeks.
my mom left for the US yesterday. she asked my dad to record all the teleserye in the teleserye series. as i can remember way back when i used to watch soaps, she strongly said that she would never find herself watching silly drama shows on channel 2. today, she watches all 4 of them. funny how people never stick to their word.
right now, it's kind of lonely here at home. i thought i'd be with my family for 2 whole weeks but i guess, things happen. my 2 brothers are out and my dad is busy watching the teleserye my mom requested to be recorded. i guess my mom is still on the plane. i'm starting to miss her already.
sembreak started last wednesday. for me, it just started today. we worked the whole week last week for the preparation of the 40th anniversary of the sorority. it was a success... although some of the hard work we did wasn't shown during the anniv due to some technical difficulties... plus we didn't get the chance to ask for financial aid from the elder sisses. but it was okay. they had fun. however, after friday, i don't feel like seeing any of the sisses... for now. after being burnt out with school, i'm burnt out with the sorority too. i'm afraid that two weeks of vacation won't be enough to rejuvenate my school nor my sorority spirits. tough.
on a more serious tone, i think i've realized something about eya again. we had a really really bad fight last friday. it was the worst fight that we've ever had... and it was through text messaging pa. i don't think we'll ever regain the closeness that we had before. i wasn't so sure before but now, i'm afraid that i'm right. everything's messed up between the two of us. what's worse pa is, we were actually doing nothing to each other. it's like there's this hidden hatred. i've never hated someone as strong as this. it's just so sad. really really sad. i just don't want to do this anymore. it's draining the life from me. i know that we can't ever resolve our problems. the only thing left for us to do is stay away from each other. i swear, i'm just too tired of it all. and with the things she said, there's a part of me that wants to regret that i ever made friends with her at all. right now, i don't think she was a bestfriend at all.