point zero

.:: Wednesday, June 09, 2004 ::.

i've created a new blogger...

www.medicalslave.blogspot.com

.:: Sunday, November 23, 2003 ::.

initiations
finally, i think it's safe to post here that we have 5 neophytes. everytime i do, they quit. i'm not superstitious. however, i just want to play it safe. the 5 of them have become special to me. i want them to be my sisses and i also want them to learn something from us. honestly, it's been very tiring. i haven't been absent since the it started and i plan to be present until their very last day. still, i can say that this has been of the happiest things that has happened since i joined STD. i'm crossing my fingers for something... even if i'm not superstitious, here's hoping i become a *** *** :)

posted at 8:49 PM | |

.:: Sunday, November 09, 2003 ::.

i just want to blog...

i think a very good friend of mine is disappointed and angry at me. truthfully(and it hurts to admit), he has a very good reason to. breaking promises is one of the worst things you could do to a friend. also, one of the reasons why people lose one. i wish i could go back and do things differently. something i gained is not worth all this... hurting my friend who meant so much to me. i just want things back. i'm sorry. i really am...

posted at 8:56 PM | |

.:: Tuesday, November 04, 2003 ::.

friday five
oh my god. matrix revolution rules!!! i can't wait to watch it again!

i wanted to post something that pissed me off but i want to break the usual angst that i have here in my blog. since it's a friday, it's time for friday five :)

1. What food do you like that most people hate?
my friends find it weird that i put fries inside my burger. but they don't hate it.

2. What food do you hate that most people love?
ampalaya and onions *yecch*

3. What famous person, whom many people may find attractive, is most unappealing to you?
J. LO!!!

4. What famous person, whom many people may find unappealing, do you find
attractive?
a lot of people i know don't like claudine barreto but to me she's pretty.

5. What popular trend baffles you?
baseball caps.

posted at 9:16 AM | |

exam week
i hate school. i know i may sound like a kid but i really do. just for now anyway.

posted at 9:16 AM | |

.:: Monday, October 27, 2003 ::.

i'm waiting for my mom to come home. i miss her so much now. yesterday i didn't, now i do. weird no? however, somehow i think my missing her is connected to the excitement i have right now in seeing my 128 MB memory stick for my sony camera... plus the smallville season 1 DVD that i ordered... hehehe. materialistic bitch that i am.

i think i'm in a worse place than a rut right now. i'm in a whole lot of mess... i'll be sounding vague again. it's hard when your private life is made public. you see a lot of shocked faces staring at you the day after you type your whole story. you can't say you didn't warn the narrow headed readers hehe. this mess i'm in, i promised myself almost a year ago that i wouldn't go through this again. this thing is just to painful... moreso, irritating and stressful. but it's not just that. i'm more concerned of possibly hurting him. i don't know what made me do it but i just felt like i needed someone stable. someone i know i could count on to be there when i need to, when i call for. because honestly, those that i thought they would, hasn't really pulled through. i know i sound demanding and selfish but i just need this to help me through this rut that i'm in. however, i know that what i'm doing is a big mistake because this person is more demanding(and selfish) than i am. his needs precede mine and i can't have that right now. i just need to know something about myself and about the people around me. then i'm finish.

now my problem is... how do i finish it?

posted at 10:11 PM | |

.:: Friday, October 24, 2003 ::.

MMDA gagu
on our way to libis, the funniest thing happened. i was pulled over again by the MMDA(this time they were in a truck and chasing me on the highway) in the same spot(damn congressional) i was caught at 5 months ago. and it gets better... by the same guy too. last time, instead of giving me a ticket, he asked for my cellphone number. so i gave it. it was better than going to LTO. i saved his name as MMDA gagu. i only replied 2 or 3 times to his repeated senseless text messages. i was about to erase his name a month ago. it was a good thing i didn't. he was going to write me a ticket but i kept forcing him not to. finally, he asked if i had still saved his number. i said i did save it and began editing his name on my cellphone. when i showed it to him, he smiled(i think he was flattered) and told me i could go. hehe. funny how a little smiling and studying medicine can get you out of tickets. i should bring a white blazer for authenticity.

posted at 8:34 PM | |

yesterday, i was out with eya.

we had our little talk and as it turns out, everything is fine again. like our fight never happened. don't get me wrong, i'm really happy that we're friends again but what i'm a bit apprehensive about is for how long will we be okay? also, i told her some stuff about people i shouldn't have told her about. i know that she doesn't accept criticism well and it's so hard for her to admit that she's wrong. oh well. at least i got to tell her some of the things i wanted to say way back during my first newsletter. let's just see how long it will take before we have our gruesome fight again.

posted at 8:26 PM | |

.:: Monday, October 20, 2003 ::.

sembreak
it's been a while since i last blogged. last week was a really really toxic week :p i don't want to ever go through that again. one of my worse weeks.

my mom left for the US yesterday. she asked my dad to record all the teleserye in the teleserye series. as i can remember way back when i used to watch soaps, she strongly said that she would never find herself watching silly drama shows on channel 2. today, she watches all 4 of them. funny how people never stick to their word.

right now, it's kind of lonely here at home. i thought i'd be with my family for 2 whole weeks but i guess, things happen. my 2 brothers are out and my dad is busy watching the teleserye my mom requested to be recorded. i guess my mom is still on the plane. i'm starting to miss her already.

sembreak started last wednesday. for me, it just started today. we worked the whole week last week for the preparation of the 40th anniversary of the sorority. it was a success... although some of the hard work we did wasn't shown during the anniv due to some technical difficulties... plus we didn't get the chance to ask for financial aid from the elder sisses. but it was okay. they had fun. however, after friday, i don't feel like seeing any of the sisses... for now. after being burnt out with school, i'm burnt out with the sorority too. i'm afraid that two weeks of vacation won't be enough to rejuvenate my school nor my sorority spirits. tough.

on a more serious tone, i think i've realized something about eya again. we had a really really bad fight last friday. it was the worst fight that we've ever had... and it was through text messaging pa. i don't think we'll ever regain the closeness that we had before. i wasn't so sure before but now, i'm afraid that i'm right. everything's messed up between the two of us. what's worse pa is, we were actually doing nothing to each other. it's like there's this hidden hatred. i've never hated someone as strong as this. it's just so sad. really really sad. i just don't want to do this anymore. it's draining the life from me. i know that we can't ever resolve our problems. the only thing left for us to do is stay away from each other. i swear, i'm just too tired of it all. and with the things she said, there's a part of me that wants to regret that i ever made friends with her at all. right now, i don't think she was a bestfriend at all.

posted at 8:28 PM | |