.:: Tuesday, August 26, 2003 ::.
yesterday was august 25th... my birthday.
i wasn't really happy on my birthday. i can't explain why. i mean i didn't expect things to be special because it was my birthday. i just wanted it to be a good day for me. then i found out that a sis's father passed away. i was supposed to donate blood for him but it was too late. how depressing.
.:: Sunday, August 24, 2003 ::.
chalk up another fight with eya.
last wednesday, i went with her to SM manila to look for a gift for doug. in the process, we ended up fighting because i teased her to be stingy...the correct term, kuripot. since i was in a good mood and the weather that morning was really great(no rain and really sunny), i decided to swallow my pride and make ammends with her. after all, i have been doing it for almost all of the 5 years i have been friends with her.
in that same day, i was angry at james. i can't really explain but i knew i was angry because i was confused.. and scared of being hurt. in the end though, i felt guilty that i was mad at him. i'm not the sort who stays angry for long. except for those very rare occassions when you wish you hadn't met me...
thursday, i was at the mall. this time with the lunch budz.
friday, i was at the mall again... with mommy queenie.
and then saturday night...
i was with kookie and joey that night.. and james. i liked that night because i got to see my friends again. i liked it even more because he was there. i had a great time dancing with him. it was something that we were looking forward to doing again. this time around, it was wilder. blame it on the jaigermeister hehehe...
then this morning, he called me and told me that he just broke up with eggpie, his girlfriend. all of a sudden, i was in limbo. i didn't know how to react. was i happy, angry, or apathetic? it was just one of those times that i really didn't want to think about what i felt right then. i wanted to comfort him but i didn't know how without being biased.
right now, i'm confused. this is harder than i thought. i really shouldn't be thinking about this too much. but if i don't, things get carried away and i'm farther down the road than i intend to be. then it's hard to get out.
.:: Saturday, August 16, 2003 ::.
i'm starting to love this song ever since a friend sang it to me. it just cracks me up. i can't wait to watch the video...
Mr. Suave by Parokya Ni Edgar
Nasa ulap ba ang iyong mga mata?
Mukhang malayo ang iyong pagtingala
Pakay ko lamang na ika'y pangitiin
Ito’y aking lambing
Subok na ang aking pag-ibig
Ikaw lamang sa buong daigdig
Tumitibok na puso ko’y dinggin
Sumama ka na sa'kin
Chorus:
Ako si Mr. Suave
Oh grabe
Habulin ng babae
Araw man o gabi
Oo ako si Mr. Suave
Oh grabe
Hayup kung dumiskarte
Wala silang masabi
Kaya't H'wag ka nang malungkot
Problem'y ibaon sa limot
Pagkat nandito lang ako umiibig sa 'yo
Hoy, hoy, hoy, hoy, hoy, hoy (4x)
Hoy, hoy, hoy, hoy, hoy, hoy (4x)
At kung kailangan na ika’y paligayahin
H’wag mag-alinlangan na ika'y lumapit sa akin
Hatid sa atin ng swabe kong bigote
Ang smooth na smooth na kiliti
Pagkat ako si Mr. Suave
Oh grabe
Habulin ng babae
Araw man o gabi
Oo Ako si Mr. Suave
Oh grabe
Hayup kung dumiskarte
Grabe na sa swabe
yesterday was tita shonie's birthday... mommy queenie and RA's mom.
we were to meet at the sor house at 5 pm so we could all(mommy, RA and me) go together. when i arrived at the sor house, RA was there in the car but mommy texted me that she would be late. so she asked that i entertain RA first. on my way to the car, james saw me from the frat house. he stopped me and i told him that RA was there. he said he wanted to see him. i tried not to laugh. it was just so silly. he didn't really get a chance to see him. james only saw RA's silhouette. when mommy came, we drove off and headed to their house at del monte.
we arrived at saisaki around 7:30 pm and i was surprised because i had no idea it was like a mini party. they had reserved a function room and there were at least 15 people there. most of them were friends of tita shonie. the rest were mommy's cousins... who were on my table, giving RA and me a hard time. they kept teasing us every now and then. it was funny, really. i wanted to look at RA and see how he reacted to all the teasing. he didn't say anything when they did. hehe. i like them. especially kuya ronan. i enjoyed being with them even if all they did, 90% of the time, was tease me. it was nice to know mommy's relatives. it's like knowing about her background.
after dinner, tita shonie's friends had organized a small program. they made all the people there speak(except for me, of course, and a few others). i enjoyed watching all of it. it was really interesting for me to see that even if tita shonie has a family, she still keeps in touch with her friends. they seem to laugh and talk like teenage girls. they giggle and act like my friends and i. it seems like they don't let their age get to them as long as they have each other. i feel so happy for them. i wish that when i'm at their age, i still have my friends. just like them.
i learned a lot that night. i also felt a lot better about growing old. it's one of my biggest fears. right now though, i don't fear it so much as before. i like mommy's family. it's like danilo's family but better. sometimes, friendship doesn't end with knowing only the friend but also his or her family too.
last night, i did just that and i ended up with a great warm feeling inside :) everything is just sooooo perfect!
.:: Friday, August 15, 2003 ::.
i just finished my neuro exam. just a little more and i'm going to hate neuro. gone will be my dreams of pursuing neuropsych. my head still hurts from the exam...
last tuesday, me and the lunch budz went out. it was our first night out. we had dinner at laff line and after that, videoke at music 21. i had a really good time. especially at music 21. patrick was just so hilarious. he did a lot of impressions... kiko maching ;)
after 3 years in medicine, i never thought i'd have a set of friends that i would really enjoy being with like my college friends. medicine is so much fun with great friends. everything may have changed(no eya, less elgin, less aries) but in a way, i'm happy that it did. my life right now is just perfect. for once, just before my birthday, i'm content and happy with my life. maybe i was just too serious looking for happiness then that i forgot to just enjoy what i had right now and have fun. life should be like this for everyone. i got this from the internet...
human beings are such small creatures, aren't they ?
so don't be too calculative on everything,
treasure every moment, do what you wish to do .....
broaden your view, broaden your mind,
don't worry too much about things that are bothering you,
do treasure your life, live safely and peacefully,
always be happy to welcome the coming of the new day ...... enjoy the sunshine ...
.:: Wednesday, August 13, 2003 ::.
i have been bad. i just know it. i'm betting that my limbic system(center for instinctive impulses) is bigger than my neocortex(center for emotions, thinking and other stuff i forgot to read about). this makes me an idiot. a dangerous idiot.
this guy that i have been seeing should only be just a friend. no kisses, no holding hands, no anything. i should know better. i've been through this path before. if only he could stop being so charming and funny... and really fun to be with. i'm going to stop this. i mean, i should stop this. i'll do it after my birthday...after discovery hehehe... i think i'm entitled to some fun.
what the heck. life is too short for it to be boring. i'll let my limbic system take over me just this one last time. as the old saying goes, "study hard, party harder".
.:: Saturday, August 02, 2003 ::.
i so definitely love community module. i love it so much that i forgot about my blog. i'm sorry blog...
last last week, i watched three movies with three different persons. monday was down with love, then wednesday was lizzie mcguirre and thursday was tomb raider 2. then last week, i went out with a friend, james. he's a really fun person to be with. i didn't even have to pay for anything. he had an american express card(impressive!). we ate lunch at bubba gump, watched a movie at greenbelt 3 then had dinner at big buddha(my favorite chinese restaurant). there's more that i want to write about but... i can't ;) bottomline is, i just had one helluva time. he might be bad news but it just feels so good to be with him. and for all of you out there wondering, he's just a friend. that's all he's going to be for me.
i'll probably write regularly again when we change modules. right now, i'm waiting for mommy so that we could have lunch together. until then.
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